Last couple of days then, I went to see Arctic Monkeys in Exeter on Wednesday night. They were really excellent I thought, they played a bunch of the downloadable tracks, the single, plus Vampires and a brand spanking new one which sounded pretty good too. So good watching bands outside London as well, my second out of London gig, the room just descended into a massive mosh pit. Needless to say I didn't get involved, the London 'cool' factor has set in and won't be shaken off I suppose, I moved myself to the side of the room and stood, just enjoying the music, mouthing along a word or two. Only had 1 drink too.

I loves the Arctic Monkeys, they're a proper decent band. Paul really likes them too, came away as impressed as me. Saw a fella from London there as well, Malcolm I think his name is, Ally's friend who's always at Unstrung gigs anyway. Said Hello and that, he was on holiday down near Plymouth so booked himself a ticket.

Work yesterday was horrible, didn't get a break until 6 hours in because I had to finish tipping one lorry, and then there were 2 more waiting to be unloaded in the yard when I came in at 4. Didn't get them finished til 7.30, what with having to get people out to help break down 2 of the frozen boards, and then having to reload the lorry with empty crates, all the time having a cunt of a driver watching me and making smartarse comments about my 'driving' all the while I was using the trucks to unload. Really pisses me off the way people bang on about how I'm not very good at using the things. DO YOU THINK I DON'T FUCKING KNOW? DO YOU REALLY THINK IF YOU STAND THERE WITH A STUPID GRIN ON YOUR FACE WHEN YOU SEE ME STRUGGLING, OR KEEP MAKING NOT VERY FUNNY COMMENTS LIKE 'OH AMATEUR DRIVERS!' ALL THE FRIGGING TIME I'M GONNA GET ANY BETTER? NO! WANKERS. Yes anyway, I had my first 15 minute break, which was more like 25 minutes, at 8 o clock, then had another at 9 o clock, and then worked very slowly until 10 o clock. Quite shit.

Ha, also, that man who did that funny thing when I was tidying the warehouse the other day was talking to me in the cloakroom again. At 8 o clock I told him I was just going on my first break, and he roared "THAT'S AWFUL! You should look after yourself better!". He was really disgusted by it. I couldn't care less really, was just a bit tired. He then went and sat with me in the staffroom and told me all about his family and how he hardly ever got to see his wise and kids because he works the late shift, at one point I felt really sorry for him, he sounded really depressed, asking things like "Really, what kind of existance is that?" about only seeing his wife for about an hour when he gets home. Poor bloke, he cheered up when he started telling me about pensions and whatnot though. Apparently Sainsburys have a really good pension scheme, and you can buy cut price shares as well as a member of staff. Apparently I should get involved in that. Apparently I'm giving it some thought.

Yesterday as well, that girl was at the bus stop in Bideford with a couple friends when I was going to work. I sat away from her and ignored her, sat on the top deck of the bus, and looked away when I was leaving the bus. She blatently saw I was there, but just ignored me too. Fair do's. Although I hate ignoring people, especially her cos I do really like her, grrrrrr... I'm a prat.

Tried to get a doctors appointment this morning cos I need more tablets, but they were all booked up, so I'll try again on Monday. I've enough to last til Sunday, but then I'll need some. I think it'll be time for me to come off them soon, either this month or next. I want to see how I'll be without them. I don't feel 100%, but I don't really want to. The things that are getting me down now - work, girls etc, are run of the mill things. I wouldn't want to not get upset about them. At the same time I'm aware I'm hypersensitive to certain things, but that's just me I suppose. The only thing I really have a problem with is total apathy, but working has got rid of the dangerous aspect of that. My head does still feel cloudy and my sleeping is still ever so strange, but I'm hoping that that's more to do with the tablets than any proper problem. We'll see anyway.